I woke late early in still dark morning light peeking but had not yet pulled away night . I was thirsty and turned to exit the bedI saw four pair hands hanging on to the foam sleep easy soft mattress, and eight slanted red eyes wide with as they stared at my naked body gold in the light. I looked toward the foot of the bed and he stood there with his hands on the bed frame, " I liked watching you sleep Bonnielynn you are so much like a child " , I looked to pull my blanket across my naked body, and heard the giggles from the bedside trolls. One had a long strand of my chain from my collar and pulled, whispered, " we were told not to touch but we want to " then again the giggles . I rubbed my eyes and felt the pull on my collar released. I opened my eyes and he was sitting on the side of my bed looking at the strains of delicate gold chains, he spoke," there was a time when we shared a bed every night but you refuse to remember " . I pulled away afraid he pulled my ankle and I slide down the bed towards him. He moved to lay next to me in his expensive suit and stroked my breast so softly, " one day you will wake and I won't have to wait for you to come to me like you used to willing". If this was a dream i was feeling every pull and tug on my left nipple as he started to kiss and suckle looking up into my eyes for a moment I saw what he once was a endearing lost soul . But that did not last as he grabbed my necklace collar firmly to kiss me . He tasted of nothing yet I melted inside and I let him maneuver on top of me bringing my legs up and bent at the knee. I did not remember him removing his suit as his naked body moved into mine, As being rocked into a deep hard sleep he pulled my hips up to meet his and the violence of his movements made me shutter in pleasure I moaned and gave into my bodies desires for him . A rush of warmth and contraction as my uterus held the orgasm for a never ending long moment. IF love felt like this how could his love with his dark eyes be so wrong and so dream like? I woke to my cell phone ringing and I looked it was Chris I rolled over and just let it ring, I was sick with a horrid cold and my body on fire from fever I fell back to sleep until the early evening. My head was pounding and I was so thirsty I walked across the loft dragging the delicate chains on the floor behind me I stood by the water cooler in the kitchen gulping water . I took some medicine the doctor had given me and made tea, I decided my dreams of sexual adventure were due to my high fever, and that worked until I stepped on the chains of the collar necklace I still had on, I removed it and placed in on the table. If this was a dream? Since when were gift chains given ? I sat down with some light toast and tea to call Chris, " Bonnielynn are you ok? we all have been worried?' I assured her I was ok just sick with the flu and kept the call brief I just did not have the energy . Dolly called and gave me the number of a man she wanted me to speak with in reference to my dreams and I agreed to call him . The man's name was Terry and he was a friend of Dolly's who had been filled in on my dreams but of course not the sexually activities. He told me that I needed to pray for protection and to burn sage to eliminate the entities, and I stated " but Terry this entity acts like he knows me?" I was told " he lies he is using your weakened state to fool you and use you . You must pray for his elimination from your spirit and life before he gets stronger!" I nodded and verbalized my agreement to comply and hung up the phone, and sat quietly thinking of my sick condition and just where was I do find sage? I dressed in black slacks, sweater and high heeled boots and headed out to the market for supplies and the required ingredient to remove my fantasy ghost? Who would have thought I was an highly educated female who would entertain these dreams with anything more than a shrug? I bought supplies and managed to find a small bundle of sage, returning home to my loft I secured the supplies and set down to pray . I bowed my head to ask for forgiveness and protection burning a candle and tears fell, as they always do when I pray, as I am overcome with love and humility. I finished and walked to the end of the loft with the sage just about to light it when I saw a whips of smoke like mist in the corner of the room by the large dressing mirror, I stopped fascinated as it twirled and dissipated into nothing . I finally saw that I was not alone and I felt a chill, as I light the sage moving across the room I prayed for protection. Sparky my cat followed behind in quiet curious feline procession, he is immune to his care providers weirdness. I felt satisfied I had done as instructed but somehow it did not feel right or I felt more exposed than ever before. I took a hot bath with oils sipping my tea as the steam seeped into my body as if I was the tea leaf, I laid back into the perfumed water thinking, " please Jesus let this all just be over " and closed my eyes to pray. I don't remember laying down to sleep but then I was beyond tired due to my cold but I drifted into a sleep and found myself in a dark room with a light blue dressing robe with a gold cross around my neck , the room had no light source, and I felt someone standing behind me. Suddenly there was a hard pull around my waist and I voice whispered in my ear , " how dare you try to get rid of us without me getting my share and rightful turn with you Bonnielynn", I felt a hot kiss running down my neck as he pulled at my robe, I pulled from his grasp but he was so strong. He laughed , " pray some more why don't you , say get that grass thing again you little bitch, I am going to drag you down with me as my prize and you will be my whore for eternity" , I pulled but I could not free myself ,and his hold on my waist was taking my breath from me. I couldn't breath!!! I thrashed as I felt myself being pulled further down I was screaming as he tore at my gown and pulled my cross from my neck, " you won't be needing that where I am taking you whore, " I turned slightly and saw him, he had short blonde hair and thin lips, his eyes wear huge with laughter and desire. I fought with all my strength as I knew if he achieved his goal of my entering his world I would never leave. I fought to wake but could not , as I felt my robe fall away he ran his hands over my body, his skin was scaly rough and scratched me. He seethed , " I want my share I have been waiting my turn and I will have it from the nice Christian whore with bad thoughts, you will be my religious slut prize " . I was falling faster and deeper into the darkness and my screams just seemed to echo off the blackness that was my travel . Suddenly I felt many hands on my arms and trunk pulling me up yanking me free, as the blonde hair attacker screamed his outrage, I rushed towards the surface of wakefulness, and found myself alone in my bed. I was terrified and felt something in the room with me but it was not evil it felt like protection. What door had I opened? What had I done with the sage? What was happening to me? I turned to cry into my pillow and did not sleep the rest of the night.